how can you forget your past if you can’t let go?

ilang taon na rin nkalipas simula nun naghiwalay SILA nun girlfriend ng kaibgan ng kaibgan ko.. ilang taon rin un at i think sapat na un para makapgmove on

nakilala nya ang isang babae na ngpasaya sknya, sya un kaibgan ko ngaun, they were very close from each other, kung ttingnan pra na slang magkapatid, pero dahil hndi nman, pra sa ibang tao SILA na.. mala kim and gerald ang love story, john llyod at bea sa mga movie, it’s very happy to know na nging msaya sla sa isat isa, khit na mrami na slang pngdaan they still stay strong :))

pero pano kung di pa pla sya nakamove on? pano un kaibgan ko? pinaasa lng? why did you have to make her believe that you love her too… why did you have to make her feel special… kung totoo un narramdaman mo pra sknya, bkt hndi mo pa knakalimutan ang past.., snu ang mssktan? ikw at ang kaibgan ko..

mahal mo pa rin ba sya? o mahal mo un taong muling nagpasaya sayo?

buti na lng at hndi na nagassume un babae, pra hndi sya msaktan, tinanggap na nya na hndi lng sya ang nsa puso ng taong mahal nya, she was very confused, kung sya ba tlga un mahal nya? o un past? masakit…

“i love him, but i can feel that he still can’t let go.. so i will give him space for  MY sake” - girl..

courtesy: Wattpad

oct.20 2012

” may ssabhin aq, actually sau q pa lng ssabhin to, i had meet a boy, magkakilala na kmi dati pero muli kming ngkita, ‘i want to him to become one of my friends again because i missed him SO MUCH’ yan na lng nsabi q, nhhiya pa q sknya nun una, di q sya mkausap, pahirapan pa, i always just smiled at him, kung kkausapin q man sya nhhiya tlga aq, pero gusto q sya ulit mgging kaclose ult ksi sobrang nmiss q sya, ang saya saya q ksi hbng tumatagal ngging close n ult kmi :> tulad ng gusto q :D ang sya q tuwing ksma sya, ang dmi q naransan kasama sya, ang dming memories :> lagi q sya naiisip, di q matake na di sya makita ng khit isang araw ksi sbrang nmmiss q sya, pero di nya alm to ksi bka anu isipin nya, tpos lagi na kming nagaaway, kung alm lng nya na nassaktan aq tuwing nagaaway kmi at minsan my times na umiiyak aq, hays madalas ksi tlga kmi magaway, lagi q sya nppanaginipan., di nya alm na kung ganu nya q nassakatan (ksi gusto q sya) lalo na tuwing hndi kmi ngkkaaus, ipinapakita nya na ayaw nya skin, hndi aq kawalan, at wla syang paki, ang sakit nun…. tuwing iniisp q un nppaiyak na lng aq.. importante sya skin, pero asa pa q na ganun din nrramdaman nya,kaibigan q sya pero bkit nkkaramdam aq ng selos, pero bkt q ba to nrramdaman?? narealize q…, simple lng, mtagal q na pla syang mahal, pero di q masabi ksi bka mgalit sya, marreject lng din aq eh takot aq mwala sya., ang hrap nya kalimutan, ang hrap magmove on lalo na sya pla un first love mo, di q ksi akalaing loyal aq.., kilala mo ba kung snu sya? iwish he can read this msg., sna marinig nya to skin, gusto q malaman nya na mtagal q na syang mahal pero di q msabi ng personal ksi ayaw q makita reaction nya, at ayw q mrinig un ssabhin nya., to lng ksi tlga praan pra mkapaglet go aq, pra mging kaibgan turing q sknya at pra di na q msaktan sknya, sna pgkatpos nto klimutan mu na snabi q at kakalimutan q rin mga snabi q., this time mkkapaglet go na q. mahal kta at thanks for the memories, i learn a lot, slamat, walang iwanan ah :)”

- this is what i wanted him to know but i don’t have opportunity to tell him… what a childish me.., i’m so lovesick in these days, but thank you because as time goes by, i learn to accept things that i will never have…

busheet, this  will be last emotional confession., tssss

sept. 18, 2012

this day was my birthday, i already planned what will i do for this day, hang out with my friends, pictorials, eating with my relatives, inviting my friends in my house and this also includes confronting to my special someone, we can use the term ‘confession’

i was really expecting that he will listened to me, because in that way i can set myself free… free from him because he was stock in my life.. he made me very frustrated in the past 3 months, by means of what? because he is weak! he can’t fight those things he wanted to get.. he made me believed that we have the same feelings.. it is really hard to determine if he also feels the same way! he made me to confuse everyday! why i have to think of him everyday? knowing him if he is still alive!! i got tried making this everyday, that’s why i want to tell him my feelings so that i can let go of this feelings in my heart

but still my heart is still hoping…. because he made me fell love this much.. i wasn’t angry about him., but i’m tried making this things he can’t appreciate even just a bit! on that time i’m ready to confront (confess) but he said that he don’t know how to response in my words., but i didn’t started yet! why does he waited for me to tell my feelings even if i will give up on him., yun naman gusto nya di ba, kya di nya alm issagot nya, 

on that day, he made me realize that my decision was really a great decision to give up on him… he doesn’t want me, he doesn’t need me, he doesn’t want to listened to me….. so i will take it for granted

pero lagi q syang nakkita,nkkasama, nkkausap, khit bitter aq sa loob pinakita q saknya na wlang nangyari, (wla rin nman sya pkialam kya ok lng)

what a stupid heart, tinalikuran ka na nga, pinipilit mo pa rin slang humarap..

fromgillianewithregrets:

@sam_concepcion :) I loved the religious song he sang during his concert last saturday. <33 He has soft hands. They were cold too. :)) Yun lang. BOW!

foreversamconcepcion:

alm mo hndi nman kta gusto eh, mahal na kita, di q alm pero napamahal ka na skin., lagi na lng kta namiis, lagi ka na lng nasa isip , gusto kta mapasya, gusto kta kasma, mkakwentuhan pero lhat ng un di mu naappreciate, di mu naappreciate na mahal kta., akla q mhal mu din aq, napasa lng aq dun, pero bkit bglang naglaho?? masay nman tau, bkit bgla na lng nwala :( pero khit ganun mahal pa rin kta, ewan q pero ikw lng ngparamdam skin nun, iba ka sa lhat ng nagustuhan q, ksi lagi mu q pnpasaya,pero khit ganun, alm mu ba lgi rin akong nssaktan, nappaiyak mu rin aq., anu ba gnwa q? msama ba kong tao? we are good friends, that’s why even in that situation you gave me joy., sna khit un pgkkaibgan ntin hndi mawala, importante ka skin eh, i’m thankful dhil ngging mgkaibgan tau, best friend na nga turing q sau sna ganun din turing mu skin., sna lgi kang mgopen up skin dhil magkaibagn tau pero bkit di mu maealize un? :’((

pero mahal kita eh khit nssaktan aq 

samconcepcion:

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samconcepcion:

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